Presumptuous version of me

Enough with the incessant polling, and, for once, I'll get to answer my own questions.

What cheers me up?
Easy one. Realizing that, while the thought that comes to mind is "it's a freaking world gone mad!", I get to rise above it all. There's nothing better than feeling like you've grown up to be a pretty decent human being. Nothing to hide, nothing to be ashamed of, nothing to feel sorry for.
I've screwed up. Yes, I have. But I've made my peace with it and with everyone involved. And no one (I said NO ONE) could ever accuse me of neglecting, lying or specially cheating on them. As it turns out, looking back is actually quite easy to me. No enemies, no secrets, no brokenhearts. How many people can say that without, at that point, messing up with one of these principles? How very decent of me.

What brings me down?
Even easier. Ignorance. In all its glory. I don't mean Lula-like ignorant, but I mean people-who-call-Lula-ignorant kind of ignorance. The worst anyone can do is think they'll get away with things. Or even statements like those. They won't. YOU won't. And that's ignorant of you to even think. Or maybe you think you know someone when you actually don't... another common ignorant thought. Or maybe you think the world would be a better place if you had three wishes and you would be able to fix it YOUR way. How very ignorant of me.

In spite of all of this mess I've been put through (hence the crankiness in this post)- tests, elections, rumors, lectures, deception, work, wake-up calls, and then on - I still have some hope left! How very romantic of me.

Here's a poem that often cheers me up and lets me NOT forget why I won't ever change, why greed and dishonesty will never overtake me. I guess somehow I feel I could've written it... How very snob of me.

If I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain;
If I can ease one life the aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin
Onto his nest again,
I shall not live in vain.

[Emily Dickinson]


That's it for now. Gotta go get cheered up by my friends :)) And may I just say a fine selection of people who hold principles just like mine and stick to them. And, hey, maybe you're one of them. Maybe not... but feel free to try harder. How very disdainful of me.


Immodest Rafa - just for today.