It was about TIME I got back to business!

Have you ever felt like seven days don't just add up to a week? Have you ever noticed how one horrible hour can take much longer than 60 fun minutes?

These days I got to thinking about time. It's funny how it can play tricks on us. On one hand, there's that carpe diem motto I've been trying to follow. On the other hand, how can what we do now, at this very moment and for the sake of it alone, not influence how we'll feel in a minute or a day?

On the process of thinking about all of this, the closest to a conclusion that I've gotten to is that I guess this carpe diem thing does not really exist. Just like I don't believe in "present"... after all, the moment you're done saying that word, it is, then, past.

However, I do believe in moments. I mean, I believe there's instant choices we make that will have an immediate impact. But, still, those are bound to change things that follow.

This has been a long week. It feels like a month now. Lots of fun, tangiroscas, laughter, friends and dates. Only enough to fit in one 7-day week. But great enough to last much longer.

Throughout this week, time has been a loyal friend and a dishonest enemy. First, it seemed to say: "There.. that's your chance: Seize the day. It'll be over before you even know it. No hard feelings this time". Then... tic tac... tic tac... tic tac. Over. Now what? You can't go back and do anything better or say anything differently because it's gone. Never coming back. And you regret that you only worried about that day, or the day afterwards, or the next one. Because now there's a whole bunch of things to think about. There's changes to be made and things to be explained and personality traits to be reviewed. Wouldn't it be easier if you could have just taken the time then to think about what would certainly come next?

But, then again, would you do things differently altogether? I mean, other than those talks you never had, those kisses you never finished, those places you never went to, those people you never introduced, would you change the big picture? I don't think so. So, maybe, just maybe, this carpe diem thing is not all wrong. Maybe there's a little bit of that "present" concept in every past or future moment, and that's how you recognize it.

What comes on next, you brought on yourself. That's what you get for not speaking your mind, for being insecure, for being a hopeless romantic, for listening to people you shouldn't listen to and most importantly for asking so many questions, but not the ones you meant to ask.

It's gonna be a long November.

Rafa